After ending in a cliffhanger of sorts, I find Ana and C-man still in their super-fanfiction or anime moment, and I should know what those moments look like, because I was really into fanfiction and anime when I was in high school.
By the way, there’s an international law that says that those years cannot be used to judge you. I don’t need to check. I know.
Anyway, Ana still can’t communicate right and begs Grey to kiss her… in her head. He’s not psychic, Ana.
C- dude, of course, doesn’t, because there needs to be some fake sort of drama first.
“Anastasia, you should steer clear of me. I’m not the man for you,” he whispers.
Whoa, what’s this? Christian is being sane. Enjoy it while it lasts, boys and girls.
Ana thinks she should be the judge of that, because she knows him more than he knows himself. I don’t know, Ana, what if kills women and keeps them in his freezer? What if he’s an abusive guy who hides behind calling himself a dom?
Christian and Ana behave as if Ana nearly getting hit by a law-breaking cyclist is some sort of near death experience, and Ana’s psyche still screams.
Oh, and apparently, C-man pulling away leaves Ana “bereft”. That’s a bit of a strong word for this, but I guess Ana needs to feel that she’s done something with her education.
Anyway.
Ana thinks she made it pretty damn obvious that she wanted to be kissed, but unless she’s pulling a Dopey, how the fuck would Christian know if you don’t fucking say anything, you idiot.
After more paranoia and self-doubt from Ana, she notes that the green man has appeared and scurried across the road and oh my God, James, do your fucking research when you’re writing about a real setting.
Somehow their conversation’s course took a turn for the dramatic, and Christian’s voice is anguished and his eyes are bleak and he looks torn, frustrated, and his expression is stark, and what the fuck did I miss how did they end up in this situation?
I need to take my fragile, wounded pride away and somehow nurse it back to health.
“Good luck with your exams,” he murmurs.
H u h ? This is why he looks so desolate? This is the big send off? Just to wish me luck in my exams?
“Thanks.” I can’t disguise the sarcasm in my voice. “Goodbye, Mr. Grey.”
No, really. What the fuck did I miss?
Ana is surprised she didn’t trip when she turned on her heel, and so am I, Ana.
And when Ana’s on her own in the garage, she starts crying.
This reads like a teen’s diary when their celebrity crush gets a new girlfriend or boyfriend.
I mean, holy shit, you met the guy a few days ago. You had one proper (in the loosest sense of the word) conversation with him. And you’re crying because he didn’t kiss you or feel the same way.
Okay… so I was always one of the last to be picked for basketball or volleyball – but I understood that – running and doing something else at the same time like bouncing or throwing a ball is not my thing. I am a serious liability in any sporting field.
I thought being picked last for sports means you’re unpopular, not unsporty.
Also, like all things, practice helps. Sure, there’s talent, but talent is useless without practice. And practice means you suck a little less than before.
What I’m saying is Ana believes she’s hopeless and helpless. Not a good thing. Ask any mental care professional.
Now Ana goes through the list of her faults. I’m going to list them here. You ready?
- Too pale
- Too skinny
- Too scruffy
- Uncoordinated
- List goes on
Maybe James thinks it’s cute or endearing that a character is so self-conscious and doesn’t know her own appeal, but really, no. No, it isn’t. But let’s forget that and talk about Ana here.
She lists her faults as if they’re utter deal-breakers, and there is no changing them. But what if she is “too” pale? Is that a bad thing? Some people like being pale. Some people think pale is attractive. She can get a tan and not be as pale if she wants. Too skinny can be addressed with diet and exercise. And unless she’s unhealthily skinny, it seems like a self-consciousness or body image type thing. That’s no good.
I really have an issue with her thinking being too scruffy is a fault that belongs on a list. Too scruffy is something that’s completely in a person’s hand. You’re too scruffy by choice. You don’t like being scruffy, you fix it. Uncoordinated, maybe you wouldn’t be if you hadn’t given up on sports. Does Ana really think everyone is born the way they are? No one just knows how to walk in heels, everyone who does learned to do so before they graduated to those break-neck stilettos people love and hate (and love to hate). Personally, dressing to the nines is pretty low on my priorities list, but that doesn’t mean I don’t know how to when I want or need to, and it also doesn’t mean that I’m unhappy with my state. If I was, I’d work to change it. Like everything else in life, shit takes effort. And it’s pretty clear that Ana is unready and unwilling to put that effort into anything.
Ana then goes on to say that she’s always been the one to rebuff any admirers. I’m sorry, what? How do you go from “I’m not worthy” to “I turned down everyone”? Even if you were not interested, that does not change the fact that there have been people who were interested.
…no one has ever sparked my interest – no one except Christian damn Grey.
Hey, guys, if you’re never interested in anyone, it’s okay, because Mr. or Miss Right will come along and fix that for you.
Ana thinks she just needs a good cry, but I thought that’s what you’re doing, Ana, or did you forget?
Stop! Stop Now! – My subconscious is metaphorically screaming at me, arms folded, leaning on one leg and tapping her foot in frustration.
So Ana makes it home. Kate behaves like a proper friend would when she sees that Ana is not okay.
Oh no… not the Katherine Kavanagh Inquisition.
No. Just no. This is not an Inquisition. Kate does not want some fucking juicy gossip. She sees that her friend and roommate is in a bad state and acts exactly how a normal, functioning human would act. She’s fucking worried about you, you dumb shit. And don’t compare normal fucking questions to shit like the Spanish Inquisition (among others).
I shake my head at her in a back-off now Kavanagh way – but I might as well be dealing with a blind, deaf mute.
Kate also treats nearly getting knocked down by a cyclist like it’s some sort of traumatic experience. Not saying that it isn’t dangerous, but damnit, it wasn’t even a close call, Grey pulled her out of the way pretty quickly. He was even holding her hand when she tripped, she didn’t fall all the way. Not to mention the cyclist just “whips past” her. If it was as close as call as these three chucklefucks make it seem, the guy would have braked, swerved, yelled, something!
Kate asks Ana about the coffee, saying she knows Ana hates coffee. Because being asked out for coffee means that you have to have coffee, no exceptions, and if you don’t, you’re a deviant or something.
Apparently, Kate completely forgot her “consternation” in the face of Ana’s obvious infatuation last chapter. And how she told her friend he was “bad news” especially to people like Ana. Now she’s all about them liking each other again. Either Kate has a problem, or James can’t remember what she wrote a few pages ago. When Ana says that Grey is out of her league, Kate immediately jumps to the conclusion that it’s about money. Was there a human-wide memo that people are only allowed to have relationships with people who are in the same income bracket? If there is, I didn’t get it. Kate also asks if Ana wants to see the article and photos, because the best thing to do with an upset person is to show them what made them upset in the first place. It’s the best way to get your mind off it, really.
So Ana distracts herself with her studying, and only allows herself to think of what happened that morning when she’s in bed, because that’s how you get a full night’s restful sleep.
I keep coming back to the ‘I don’t do the girlfriend thing’ quote, and I’m angry that I didn’t pounce on this information sooner, when I was in his arms mentally begging him with every fiber of my being to kiss me. He’d said it there and then.
No fucking shit.
And what the fuck is up with her “mentally begging him”. If she didn’t fucking say it, there’s no reason to believe he knows, because people don’t read minds. You know what, fuck it.
Maybe he’s saving himself. Well not for you, my sleepy subconscious has a final swipe at me before unleashing itself on my dreams.
I really think James has never had a sleepless night in her life, because this line of thinking is the best way to spend the night tossing and turning and worrying and holy fucking shit this pisses me off so much.
Suddenly, Ana’s finishing up her last exam. Because dealing with rejection while trying to study and take exams does not make for good conflict or character growth, or anything like that. Nope.
I feel the Cheshire cat grin spread over my face.
Ana feels the need to celebrate the end of exams. She might even get drunk this time. She’s never been drunk before. I wonder if James included this detail to make Ana seem more innocent, but really, it just makes it seem like Christian is a bigger creep than he is later on in the story.
I guess a lot of people celebrate the end of the semester this way, but my celebration involves crashing into bed for 12+ hours to make up for all the lost sleep. I can celebrate with friends after. Sleep first.
I glance across the sports hall at Kate, and she’s still scribbling furiously, five minutes to the end.
Is… is this a thing? In university? Ever? Why is the exam in a sports hall? Why are they in the same exam area? Are they taking the same class? What the actual fuck?
I’m currently a graduate student. I’ve never had this sort of exam situation, except once. In high school. While taking a standardized test. Every other fucking exam was in a classroom, with classmates. And let me tell you something, I’ve been to ten different schools before graduating high school, in four different countries. I went to university on two different continents. This shit does not fucking happen.
This is it, the end of my academic career.
I just need to remind everyone that in the first chapter, Grey asks Ana about her plans after graduation, and she said that she has not made any plans. From the way she describes herself and her family, she isn’t exactly in the position to be so dismissive. Like, how are you going to pay your bills? She just plans on sticking around Kate. Like a symbiont, or a parasite.
I shall never have to sit in rows of anxious, isolated students again.
Inside I’m doing graceful cartwheels around my head, knowing full well that’s the only place I can do graceful cartwheels.
Kate stops writing and puts her pen down. She glances across at me, and I catch her Cheshire cat smile too.
When the two of them get back to their place, Kate finds a package for Ana. I wonder who would send Ana a package. Ana notes that there’s no sender name or return address. I’ll get back to this in a bit.
Inside, Ana finds some first edition volumes of Tess of the D’Urbervilles.
Kate searches for the book to get an idea of how much they cost.
“I’ve found one Tess first edition for sale in New York at $14,000. But yours looks in much better condition. They must have cost more.” Kate is consulting her good friend Google.
So, James does know that you can use Google to research shit, so why doesn’t she, the lazy hag.
Anyway, back to the package. Ana notes that there is no return name or address. And there are three books in there priced at over $14,000. I dunno about you guys, but if I was getting something that expensive delivered, I’d include a return address. I’d also require signature on delivery. You don’t leave shit that valuable unattended like that! I recently ordered a laptop. They would not just leave it at the door, someone had to receive it and sign the proof of delivery. And what if the thing got lost on the way? With no return address, the package is lost. Unless Grey had it dropped off, instead of mailed, and I can see Ana not knowing the difference. I can see James not knowing the difference too.
There was a card with a quote from the book, and in case you don’t want to go find it, here it is:
Why didn’t you tell me there was danger? Why didn’t you warn me?
Ladies know what to guard against, because they read novels that tell them of these tricks.
Wow. Let’s spend a minute to think about how that sounds like some rape apologist logic. You should have known, why are you traumatized, it’s your fault. Ana’s also struck by the “irony” of having spent three whole hours writing about Tom Hardy’s novel, and hate to break it to you, but that’s not irony. That’s a coincidence. Ana thinks the card is a warning, and I don’t really disagree. She also says that the quote is what Tess said to her mother after Alec D’Urberville “has had his wicked way with her”. It’s rape, pure and simple. So Grey wrote a quote about a woman getting raped. Let’s think on that a bit.
Ana decides to do something sensible (shock, I know) and send the books back “with an equally baffling quote from some obscure part of the book”. That… kind of doesn’t make sense. How can part of a book be obscure? Kate suggests the bit where Angel Clare says fuck off, and I’m sorry, that’s probably not an obscure part of the book if there were obscure parts.
I love Kate, she’s so loyal and supportive.
Except for the parts where you bitch and moan about her, like how dare she get sick, or how she’s controlling, and, you know what, there are examples in all of the previous posts that show how Ana is always moaning about Kate. Shut the fuck up, Ana.
So Ana and Kate head out to a bar and there are lots of soon to be graduates there celebrating. Jacob is there too, even though he won’t graduate for another year, and why the fuck should he be excluded, everyone fucking celebrates the end of the semester, not just seniors, what the fuck James did you ever even have an education? And shouldn’t Jacob be graduating anyway? Ana says he’s the first person she met when she arrived at the university, so why isn’t he graduating? Ana describes how hot Kate is in her outfit while she’s more of a Converse and jeans sort of girl, and if you’re gonna bitch about your “scruffiness” that’s a good place to start, you fucking idiot. I’m just going to skim the clusterfuck that is their bar celebration, ‘cause fuck this shit.
Ana drunk-dials C-dude to ask why he sent her the books with a rape quote. She also wonders how he knew it was her, and I’d cut her slack ‘cause she’s drunk, but I’m pretty sure she’d be surprised if she wasn’t and Ana it’s because people recognize numbers or they save your number under your fucking name. C-man is concerned about her, which is cute, especially since he sent her a quote about rape to warn her away. She also pulls a “no, u” when he says she sounds strange. C-man realizes that Ana’s drunk and starts interrogating asking where she’s at because he’s so concerned. It doesn’t take long for him to go from asking questions to making demands. Because that’s so hot. She also hangs up on him without getting an answer about the books. Go, Drunk Ana, I guess.
It takes ‘til she gets to the bathroom stall to realize that she just drunk-dialed Christian Grey, and to go back to her muttering, timid self. He calls her to tell her he’s coming to get her (not even a hello or goodbye, where are your manners).
Only Christian Grey could sound so calm and so threatening at the same time.
Really? Only Christian Grey?
Ana gets worried that he’d really turn up, then remembered that he didn’t know where she was, because she didn’t tell him, but we already established that he’s a bit of a stalker (remember when he turned up at Clayton’s, Ana?). Ana acknowledges she’s drunk, but has some beer anyway. Because the best way to combat tequila-drunk is by getting beer-drunk. Ana goes out to get some fresh air, and Jacob follows her. I can see where this is going, but it’s okay, he loves her. He doesn’t take no for an answer, even though she’s begging him to stop. Luckily C-man makes a heroic appearance and gets Jacob to back off. Ana wonders how Grey found her. The tension proves too much for poor little Ana.
My stomach heaves, and I double over, my body no longer able to tolerate the alcohol, and I vomit spectacularly on to the ground.
“Ugh – Dios mio, Ana!” José jumps back in disgust. Grey grabs my hair and pulls it out of the firing line and gently leads me over to a raised flowerbed on the edge of the parking lot.
So, basically Jacob didn’t take no for an answer then got majorly grossed out because his drunk “friend” is freaking out and puked as a result. Charming. I get some people have serious problems with certain body fluids, but come on. At least feel a bit guilty or some shit, you entitled prick. Any points in his favor he got before are gone.
Christian acts nice and holds Ana’s hair out of the way, and acts like a good friend. Ana keeps puking and attributes it to the drink. I dunno, I think Jacob’s stunt didn’t help at all. She vows to never drink again, but we’ll see, won’t we, Christian?
And, is it just me or did C-man pull her aside to vomit in a flowerbed? That can’t be good for the flowers.
Christian hands Ana his own personal handkerchief, because he cares that much.
Only he would have a monogrammed, freshly laundered, linen handkerchief. CTG. I didn’t know you could still buy these.
You can buy anything on the internet, Ana. I got someone one of those wax seal stamp things with a family crest. What a time to be alive.
Ana’s embarrassed and ashamed of herself, and I’m not going to fault her for that. This sort of shit really makes you feel bad. I’m feeling awful just thinking about it.
I want to be swallowed up by the azaleas in the flowerbed and be anywhere but here.
So she did puke on the flowers.
So José’s still there, looking shamefaced and intimidated by Grey. I really hope that’s not just because of Grey, cause he did a shitty thing and being ashamed is the least he could do.
“I’ll err… see you inside,” José mutters, but we both ignore him, and he slinks off back into the building.
And Ana starts freaking out about being alone with Grey. Again. She apologizes for the phone call.
“We’ve all been here, perhaps not quite as dramatically as you,” he says dryly.
But… none of that was really dramatic, was it? That was a really tame drunk dial.
What the hell has it got to do with him? I didn’t invite him here. He sounds like a middle aged man scolding me like an errant child.
Oh, look, a spine. Wonder how long it’s going to last.
Grey wants to take Ana home, and Ana wants to tell Kate first. Good idea. Grey says that his brother will tell her. Just gonna say, don’t trust someone to do your shit for you, especially if it’s someone who’s pretty much a stranger who’s taking drunk-you home. It could be a life and death situation, you never know.
Ana wonders how Christian found her, and he says he tracked her cellphone.
Oh, of course he did. How is that possible? Is it legal? Stalker, my subconscious whispers at me through the cloud of tequila that’s still floating in my brain,
YES, ANA, LISTEN TO YOUR SUBCONSCIOUS.
but somehow, because it’s him, I don’t mind.
Ana insists on telling Kate herself (YES) which Christian doesn’t seem to like, but he lets her. I don’t give a shit what you don’t like, C-dude, if you care about Ana, you’d be happy she’s being safe. Asshole.
They head back into the bar to find Kate, but she’s dancing and José had disappeared. To wallow in his shame or start down the path towards repentance or something, hopefully. But I’m not holding my breath.
Christian takes Ana to the bar, where he’s of course served immediately, because everyone out there knows Christian Grey on sight. Except Ana. She didn’t know who he was or what he looked like until that interview. More evidence to illustrate how dumb she is. She doesn’t hear what he orders. He hands her a glass and orders her to drink. Charming.
The moving lights are twisting and turning in time to the music casting strange colored light and shadows all over the bar and the clientele. He’s alternately green, blue, white, and a demonic red. He’s watching me intently. I take a tentative sip.
Are they in a bar or a club? I don’t think James knows the difference.
Grey shouts at Ana to drink the whole thing. Charming.
Oh Ana… are you ever going to live this down? My subconscious is figuratively tutting and glaring at me over her half moon specs.
The idiot then drinks the whole fucking glass. Why. How the fuck do you know what’s in the damn thing? You were just thinking about how everyone knows him and he gets what he wants and all that shit, and what if he slipped something in there, you idiot.
Then he takes her dancing.
I thought he was going to take her home and he didn’t want her going back inside for her jacket and bag and to tell Kate where she is. Maybe he’s waiting for the roofies to work their magic.
Boy, he can dance, and I can’t believe that I’m following him step for step.
In the back of my mind, my mother’s often recited warning comes to me: Never trust a man who can dance.
I get what James means by this, but Grey doesn’t have a history or reputation as a womanizer so what the fuck is this supposed to mean?
They dance over to Kate who is dancing with Christian’s brother, Elliot. And apparently Kate really likes him.
Even in my inebriated state, I am shocked. She’s only just met him.
Christian talks to his brother, who talks to Kate, and then whisks Ana away. I’m pretty sure you shouldn’t hinge your safety on club bar Telephone.
But I never got to talk to her. Is she okay? I can see where things are heading for her and him. I need to do the safe sex lecture. In the back of my mind, I hope she reads one of the posters on the back of the toilet doors.
My head begins to swim, oh no… and I can feel the floor coming up to meet my face or so it feels. The last thing I hear before I pass out in Christian Grey’s arms is his harsh epithet.
“Fuck!”
Roofies. I knew it.
And that’s it for this chapter. I’m trying to write more, but the book is so damn hard to read. I’m really wondering if I’m reading the same thing people are raving about. Because this is shit. It’s horribly written. Anyone with a brain who has read anything else would tell you it’s shit. And Twilight doesn’t count as anything else. I don’t care if you fucking like it, but stop going on about how it’s amazingly written because it’s fucking not. I have guilty pleasures too, but that doesn’t mean I won’t acknowledge their shitty aspects.
Itsrane’s Quick List of Worrying Details:
- Ana either cannot or would not communicate clearly, and expects people to know what she wants when she “mentally begs”.
- Ana is not happy with her “faults” but does nothing to try to fix them, even though she can do something about the ones she listed with lifestyle changes.
- Ana prefers to be passive, and lets things happen to her instead of actively pursuing what she wants.
- Ana is literal minded, as she assumes that people always have coffee when they go out for coffee.
- Ana either does not want, or is incapable of, distinguishing between her friend wanting some juicy gossip, or the same friend being concerned for her, and refers to any questions as an “Inquisition”.
- Ana cannot envision another reason to party except her own; when she went out to celebrate their upcoming graduation, she does not even think that others may celebrate the end of the year, or that they may be celebrating with other people (or even going out for the sake of going out).
- Ana does not mind Christian doing something very immoral and illegal, despite her not knowing the man.
- Ana drinks something Christian gave her without even finding out what was in the glass.
- Christian locates Ana by tracking her phone. This is stalking.
- Christian feels justified in tracking Ana and showing up unannounced.
- Christian is annoyed by Ana’s insistence of informing her friend of her location. This is not an inconvenience. It is staying safe.
- Christian gives Ana a drink and orders her to drink it. He could have easily slipped something into the drink, or bribed someone to do it for him.
- Christian sees that Ana does not like to dance, yet drags her to the dance floor anyway.
- Christian does not give Ana the chance to talk to her friend. He instead gives the information he wants to share to his brother to pass on to Kate. Ana does not know what he said to Elliot.
- James does not know how higher education works. Exams are not given in sports halls. Exams are not given to a mix of students from different classes and majors in the same hall.
- James does not know the difference between a club and a bar.
- James’ characters flip-flop. They are against something on a page, and for it a few pages later. Kate still has not made up her mind about whether Ana should be with Christian, or if he is bad news. Ana has not made up her mind about whether Kate is a controlling bitch or her best friend forever. Christian wants to leave immediately and is annoyed by the idea of finding Kate, but goes dancing once they are inside.
- James probably does not keep notes about her stories, and it shows in the way the characters cannot decide what sort of personality they want to exhibit, and how their opinions change from one page to the next.
- James knows what Google is and has absolutely no excuse to not research.